Thursday, November 25, 2004
love isnt so simple..... e' ups n down is turnin mi mad... i'm realli mad now..... i need to go woodbridge soon liao le..... argh!!!!! someone plz send mi there... plz plz... i beg u..........
i'm goin crazy... i'm goin mad..... i'm stuck.. real stuck... help mi plz... help mi..... argh.... hu do i love? him or him? argh!!!!
was packin my bks ydae nite... a letter dropped... a letter fr him... wif a song lyrics... it's an jing... tt letter was written 2 yrs ago... excatly 2 yrs ago... on 20/11/02 on our 2 mth anni.. n tt lyrics was written on my b'dae on '03 an jing.. an jing... wat e' hell u wan.... y dis song keep flowin into my mind.... was playin my playlist ydae nite.. it was an jing... watched s'pore idol 2dae... saw sly sang an jing... den was listenin to 933 juz now... an jing again... wat e' hell... stop tt... i hate an jing... hate tt.... I HATE YOU!!! I HATE AN JING!!! I HATE EVERYTHING!!!
thgs aint wat i wan... haiz...... watever....
was tokin on fone wif some frenz 2dae afternoon... n 1 of them asked mi... 'do u think u r happi now? or r u juz force urself to be happi?' well.. dis qn realli hit mi.... i realli dunno... keep think abt dis qn till now... n dis is wat someone concluded...
well.. i'm nt happi.. n i did nt force myself to be happi either... well.. maybe it's true.. there's soooo mani thgs happened tt i almost wanna end my life here... do u guys think i'm happi? maybe happi in apperance bt nt emotionalli... been thinkin wat happened e' pass few yrs... heaven is juz far tooooooo unfair.... haiz.. well.. dun wanna sae all e' unhappiness here... i'll still keep all by myself................................ stay happ[i always ppl okok... :p
live life a fullest... haha..*copyrite fr alan wor....so dun u dare to copy tt.. wahaha.. :p*
~fernny~ can someone gv mi some medicine tt will make mi forget wat happened n start anew?
caught a falling star @ 10:56 PM